I sit here idle. Doing nothing, feeling the wind blowing against my face. i cant think of anything. so desperate. life was never so hard . Most of the times things fall into place so nicely. i never had to worry about a thing. When i look back i know my life was a pleasure ride. Never thought of me like a spoiled brat born with a silver spoon in his mouth. i don’t consider my self as an unlucky one too. Most of my life, i never faced a tough competition. Winning used to be a habit. i knew something was around the corner lurking. And that one day my luck will run out .. Someone said things begun well is equivalent to half done. My first half began on such a promising note. i thought i will be doing something great in future.. As a child i never wondered what my future will look like in 15 years from now. I always thought destiny will lead my way. People tell me i m lazy. i do understand that they have a point. Most of the times, i calculate things in so advance that, i wont do anything stupid, i wont go for something crazy, or do something out of the box.Knowing things in advance has some serious disadvantages. People think why don’t he give a try.

I am now seriously thinking about the way life changes in every second. Sometimes I think i m the happiest person alive, the next moment i m going to break down. Looking back, i still can remember those wonderful childhood memories. I was so eager to grow up. Now i wish if i could travel in time, back to those wonderful days. The worst thing in man’s life is when people around him try to make him a better person. Long sleepless nights I have pondered my mind , why cant people accept someone as they are. I am not that much a quiet guy. i m not much of dynamite too.. My character varies, attitude varies and behavior changes according to person, time and place.Once i was in a meeting , our manager was pointing his fingers at one of our team mates. Let me tell you, i don’t know this guy personally. Yea. He is quite and not someone who interacts with everyone around him. But believe me he was very gentle, innocent and with heart of gold . So our manager was telling him you must do this, do that, interact more etc.. I was sitting there wondering why this guy want to make him something else. According to me each persons character is unique, and that’s the way it ought to be.If everyone begins to behave the same, this world gonna to be so boring. Get a manual, teachers cook book then brainwash all the mankind to make their character the ideal one. What the heck!!. Why people cant leave a man as he is. What is the big deal if someone want to keep quiet. If someone don’t play rugby. You cant force someone to be someone else. In my wildest dreams i haven’t see myself jumping into a stage doing an Elvis. Its not that i don’t like music or i don’t like to sing. Its not something i crave. I know what i am and to me that’s the biggest thing a person has to learn. Know your limitations, also know what you really good at. Nothing comes prefect. Also we don’t have good standards for everything we measure. Next time, when you see person different.. Don’t wish he would have been this or that. Don’t advice someone you have to improve in this or that. Many people term this constructive criticism.But most of the times what they do is damage a man’s self belief. You cant tell a person walk like this or talk like this. Who says what you want someone to do is prefect. If some day i write a book, or direct a movie.. there is only one message i want to give to this world.
“Be What you are. Accept people for what they are, not for what they can be”.

Dunno why i feel somewhat better. I want to write more.. None of these are what i was going to write. Too many emotions sometimes crowd up our mind, leading us into something else. Anyway I always wanted to share these thoughts..So happy i got a chance..

to be continued…